A beautiful struggle with ONE's self

Thursday, August 24, 2006

It's A Good Look

Watching last night's episode of Noah's Arc, made me so proud. The show has come a long way from its humble beginnings. The show is back and better than ever. I feel like my Wednesday nights are complete again. It just feels so good to see people like me, black and gay, on television.

When Noah's Arc first premiered, it was loved by many and torn apart by most, including me, but I always liked the show despite some of my comments. The show looks and feels like it has gotten a makeover from production to the cast. I know they are filming in Canada now, which I think was a good move, not to mention a good look. The writing which had me worried at first, has improved tremendously. Deeper issues are being explored and executed beautifully. Everything seems to flow a lot smoother, without feeling rushed. I would just like to point out a few observations from this season:

Chance's BOOTY, the scene last week when he was on the ladder...He has the phattest ass, it looks so hard but firm and round, I just wanna....yea..he has a very nice ass LOL.

Ricky is looking good this season. Last season, I was not feeling him much at all, he was pretty, but almost girly pretty, especially the hair. The facial hair and the mohawk is a very good look and improvement.

For some reason, I am JUST NOT attracted to Trey. I am not colorstruck or anything like that, but he just looks like he is about to FADE AWAY or something, he is cute, but something about him just doesn't do it for me.

Guy is All-American fine, I'm mad he is after Alex's man, I am very anxious to see how Alex is going to handle this, as dramatic as he is, he better whoop Guy's ass.

Noah reminds of Carrie from Sex and The City so much.
-He is a writer
-He dresses like a clown at times
-He wears hair extentions (like he did with the cornrows last night, the beads made it even more of a mess)

For some reason last night, Noah looked extra gay in that purple sweater and hair beads, is that mean to say?

I am so happy this show is back on the air. I hope this season is longer than the first.

Friday, August 11, 2006

Da-Gay-Gay

I HATE when I tell people I am Gay and they respond "How Do U know if you have never been with a Man before?" Being Gay is not like trying caviar, where u have to taste it, to know if you like it or not, that shit irks the fuck outta me. I know I'm Gay, I wouldn't say it, if I wasn't and I damn sure wouldn't fake it if I wasn't, that's just stupid. I know me and I know WHO I AM, and being gay is only part of me, not me as a person.

I have been doing some thinking lately about my life. I am Black and while growing up, my parents made it their duty to make sure I knew where I came from and participated in my culture. Well I am Gay, and the gay community has culture, events, and just everyday life that I would like to be apart of. I am a GAY Virgin, never have, never been, never was, with a man before, so I compiled a list of GAY things I would like to do before I'm 25.

1. Hold Hands with a Man.

2. Kiss A Man


3. Have Sex with a Man.


4. Fall in Love...yep with a Man.


5. Go to a House Ball.


6. Go to a Gay Club.


7. Go to Gay Pride.


8. Make a Gay BEST Friend.


9.Read a copy of Clik magazine


10. Meet Karamo Brown and tell him how much I LOVE and HATE him.

I'm not some sheltered, naive closet case. Just inexperienced, but hopefully with time I will find the light.




Wednesday, August 02, 2006

They're BAACCCKK!





Words can not explain how excited I am for the new season of Noah's Arc. When I saw these promos last week, I got goosebumps. I see some of the cast is trying out new looks, hope the new looks come with some better acting, I have faith that it will. This season I will try not to be so critical and just enjoy the show for what it is. Everybody seemed to have something to say about the show, whether it was positive or negative.



It looks like it's gonna be a good season. Plus with all the new additions to the cast, I'm sure it's gonna be worth the wait. The new season of Noah's Arc premieres Wednesday, August 9!

Cash Flow

I am not rich, I don't have a lot of money, but I have enough money to get by and get what I need and most of the time want. I haven't been getting a lot of hours at work, but I am actually happy about that. When I want something I usually just save up some money for it, but as of lately it just feels like I haven't been able to save much of anything. I am one of those people. where if I am broke, I don't want you to be able to tell, and more than likely, you won't be able to.

I haven't bought new clothes in about 2 months. I usually buy at least a shirt like every two weeks. My cash flow feels like its running dry. I have two important things I need to pay for. One, my cellphone, I have a sidekick II, but the damn keyboard is coming off...again. My warranty is expired, so my only options are to go through my insurance and get another one, or just upgrade to the sidekick III which I planned on doing anyway. The phone is $300.00.

Secondly, I am going to Chicago towards the end of the month, to visit my best friend. I need spending money. The only good part is that I got my plane ticket on sale. I want to have at least $500.00 to spend on clothes, food, and entertainment.

I have been trying to think of ways to earn some money, quick and legally.

I have a bunch of coins saved up which I could redeem at a local Coinstar machine.

I was thinking about selling some of the clothes I don't wear anymore. It's nice shit too. I only rock the New, New shit...LOL

I am also contemplating giving blood.

Lastly, I am thinking about donating sperm. I know alot of women want there babies to have good hair. I'm Ya Man!

I need moohla, quick, fast, and legal!! Any ideas??